Day 1 and 2 - this sucks

Day 1 and 2 were the worst. I mean the worst. I knew this going into the month. I knew that I am addicted to sugar. I knew that my body was going to go through detox.

I just didn't realize what that would feel like.

It's hell. I really feel for people addicted to any substance now. It's not a pretty site.

I went into Day 1 pretty confident. I have dieted before. I have cut calories. This was not a new thing for me. I was great until after lunch. See, after lunch, I *always* have a small bite of something sweet. Usually chocolate. My meal is really not complete until I have eaten that. I knew that wasn't going to happen today, but in no way expected what actually happened.

My mouth watered. And I don't mean that figuratively. I literally could not keep the spit from continually filling my mouth!! Not only was I amazed, I was mortified. I was like a damn Pavlov dog. My little bite of chocolate was never a need for my satiety. It was a need for my brain.

Again, at 3 pm every (school) day I eat a Kashi cookie. You might say I am a creature of habit. But on Day 1 at 3 pm, I began to crash. I felt terrible. I felt like I had the flu. I felt fatigued. I was irritable. I had a headache. I ate a luna bar, which was breaking a Whole30 rule of no snacking, but I was convinced from my reading, my lunch didn't have enough protein or fat to fill me up. We also had friends coming over and I couldn't feel like that.

I still felt terrible but fixed my first true Whole30 meal, Sweet Potato Hash from the Whole30 book. This is sweet potatoes and green bell pepper seasoned and sauteed then combined with ground turkey and onion. We served it with a fried egg on top and garnished it with chives. It was delish. I had seconds.

The red plate really takes away from how pretty this actually was!

Day 2 - Whole30 tells you to eat as soon as you wake up. This is not something I am used to, but I am a rule follower, so eat is what I did!

My egg and veggie scramble (with black coffee) was delightful, but I still felt pretty bad. The book describes it as 'carb flu'. I made it through a workout (barely). Again, Whole30 wants you to eat within half an hour of working out. So eat I did....but I wasn't hungry. I was forcing food down and miserable. 

I have been calories counting for about 15 years. I tend to eat between 1200-1400 calories a day. My body was adjusting from such a low-calorie diet.

But I ate the leftovers from the previous dinner and headed out to Whole Paycheck Foods.

Even though I wasn't hungry for the first two day, I was parched. I drank more water and never felt fully hydrated. I could not GET enough water these first two days!

I was able to get Whole30 compliment lunch meat which opened my lunches to a whole new world of possibilities! I got some other things to help me along this journey like Vanilla Bean Powder, compliant dijon mustard, RXBars, etc.

But just like the previous day, my 3 pm slump hit.

We went to dinner that night and I ordered a salad with lettuce, veggies, and grilled fish. Again, I wasn't hungry so I didn't really enjoy it. Plus, it was day two and I thought I was going to be strong than I was. My son had a huge pretzel and beer cheese and my husband and french fries....my favorite kind of french fry. I stayed strong but drew the line at Gracie Bleu fro-yo. I had to stay in the car so I couldn't even lay eyes on the stuff.

But this whole time, I wasn't hungry! According to the book, you can fall into two categories these first couple days; always hungry or always full. I probably would have been grumpier if I was always hungry.

I went to bed on Day 2 slightly discouraged because I felt so bad, but happy that I had survived so many temptations. Both nights brought horrible sleep, but something unexpected was to come!